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Hai & assalamualaikum.
Lama tak update blog so here am I to update this lovely blog of mine which I shared so many joy & tears here.
How am I gonna start this em. Okay so this is my story for this past few months. Well it had been hectic months for me & luckily I survived. Seriously like I SURVIVED! Okay overreacting 😜
Andddd I dont know why this is happening to me but I've been in a depression state like I wouldn't go out from my room, to socialize with my family, to go out with my friends, to talk to someone. No! I'd been staying in my room all day long and feel lost. I don't know why I acted like that but for some reason it feels good to me back then. I don't know. I am a happy go lucky person but for this past few months, I am not!
I easily get irritated by someone, I get angry, distressed, tension, in pressure all those stuff which in simple word called, deppression. I'd been posting some facts that I'd been look up in internet about deppression, bipolar disorder, all those stuff that easily lead to, suicide.
I don't know why but I feel sad, angry, irritated at the same time. I hate crowd, crowded place, people. I hate all living things maybe. So in those period of 'mourning', I prefer to stay in bed all day long, staring at the ceiling, sleep, overthinking, cry for no reason and also talking alone. People would assume I am crazy if they saw me like that.
Okay so now, I am happy that I well like back to normal. Not so normal but yeah I improved a bit. So then I realized that a negative mind will never give you happiness and happiness will never allow you to have negative mind :)
So that's all I want to share with you guys for now. There's a lot more story but I'll get to that later. So,
Much love,
prncsshimeer 💋
Lama tak update blog so here am I to update this lovely blog of mine which I shared so many joy & tears here.
How am I gonna start this em. Okay so this is my story for this past few months. Well it had been hectic months for me & luckily I survived. Seriously like I SURVIVED! Okay overreacting 😜
Andddd I dont know why this is happening to me but I've been in a depression state like I wouldn't go out from my room, to socialize with my family, to go out with my friends, to talk to someone. No! I'd been staying in my room all day long and feel lost. I don't know why I acted like that but for some reason it feels good to me back then. I don't know. I am a happy go lucky person but for this past few months, I am not!
I easily get irritated by someone, I get angry, distressed, tension, in pressure all those stuff which in simple word called, deppression. I'd been posting some facts that I'd been look up in internet about deppression, bipolar disorder, all those stuff that easily lead to, suicide.
I don't know why but I feel sad, angry, irritated at the same time. I hate crowd, crowded place, people. I hate all living things maybe. So in those period of 'mourning', I prefer to stay in bed all day long, staring at the ceiling, sleep, overthinking, cry for no reason and also talking alone. People would assume I am crazy if they saw me like that.
Okay so now, I am happy that I well like back to normal. Not so normal but yeah I improved a bit. So then I realized that a negative mind will never give you happiness and happiness will never allow you to have negative mind :)
So that's all I want to share with you guys for now. There's a lot more story but I'll get to that later. So,
Much love,
prncsshimeer 💋
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