"WE CANNOT CARRY FORWARD YOUR APPLICATION AT THIS PRESENT TIME"

 Hi again, people (read-nobody)

So, here I am again writing my sad journey of life. So, let me start with my job application. Since last year March, which marks the end of my degree journey (finally), I've been looking and searching for permanent jobs. I.ve tried to apply so many times, so many positions, so many companies, yet I guess the luck is not on my side. I even started working in a part-time job to fill in the gap during the period that I aggressively sought a permanent role. As I mentioned in my previous post, I worked at a local coffee shop in my village. I worked there for 5 months and I did a freelance job as a clerk for this one old man. Then, I flew to Langkawi to work as a social media assistant at a travel agent company. 

After 5 months of working there, I finally went back to my hometown to celebrate Eid. Again, I proactively seeking a permanent job. I applied through Linkedin, Jobstreet, Indeed, Hiredly. All of that. You name it. I REPEAT. ALL OF IT.

However, still no luck. I've started to feel down and sad. Being in a desperate condition to land a job. Being in a desperate situation to catch up with everyone else. I believe that everyone has their own struggle. But yet, my struggle? I can't seem to endure it well. I've tried to maintain happy behaviour but sometimes I did drown in my emotions. It somehow drains me mentally and physically.

Oooofff. This entry seems to be going in a sad tone. Sorry for that. I just have to let these emotions out of me, so that I can accept whatever had happened. So that I can be reda and accept the fate that Allah has set me. Oh and recently also, I just got rejected by a big company. I have tried my best during the assessment, and the interview but ya. Allah knows best, right? Maybe it is not a good journey for me in the future. Maybe this is Allah's way to protect me from any harm or any emotional drains in the future. Bersangka baik. 

Anyway, I felt like giving up yesterday. But today I have gathered my strength and courage, to apply for a new job, a new position. Just trying my luck, again [if there is any :(..... ]

I hope there is a blessing in disguise for me. I truly hope for that. I have reached the second-lowest point in my life after that incident in 2017. & I definitely don't want to be in that state, again. Hopefully never. 

Okay, till then. Let's hope for a better future. Hopefully, my next entry will be a happy one. In shaa Allah. Please pray for me okayyy? :) 

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Last but not least, let's appreciate the beauty that I captured this evening :')

Okay that's all :)

Much love,

lupita.